**Trigger Warning - mention Suicide** This week has kicked my butt. I thought I didn't mind sharing my journey. I often forget how crappy the super shitty parts felt - and I think that's a survival mechanism. Kind of like childbirth. But the lows have been really low at times and I never want to… Continue reading Ugly
**Trigger warning** It's been a bit since I could write. Mostly because I'm feeling like you've heard enough of the negativity. Blah. Blah. Blah. Shelley is sad. Ugh. Enough already. I know I've had enough. But my friend reminded me today of the gift of honesty and sharing. Even the crappiest parts. So... "I made… Continue reading I made my bed today.
Shelley is my cousin. While we have obviously known each other since we were children, we were not what most would call 'close' until recent years. We have socialized over the years, of course, and we genuinely liked each other (I think) but we hadn't really bonded. I'm not really sure when that changed. I guess when Shelley started… Continue reading Car Rides with ‘Staley’
The mask is becoming transparent to me, the emotions are beginning to disappear, the darkness is once again creeping in. The cycle has begun. I’m not telling you about the final season of Game Of Thrones, its the disease that my beautiful girl Shelley has to fight and deal with on a reoccurring basis. Most… Continue reading The Rock. By Derek Clark
It's been a while since I posted! We've been gearing up for Zach Makes Tracks for Youth Mental Health VERSION 2.0 - and we're excited about how many communities and youth we hope to be able to help this time around! Even when things are going well, and we have so much to be excited… Continue reading Whatever. It. Takes.
Today was a big day for us. It was also #BellLetsTalk Day. Derek and I were up at 4am for an early morning arrival, in the dark, at CAMH. It started off with an invitation to join one of the CAMH doctors, Dr. Daskalakis, for an interview with Jamie Gutfreund from CP24. We discussed rTMS… Continue reading Putting the Spotlight on rTMS, Mental Health and our Government
Tomorrow is a BIG day in the mental health fundraising world. It's Bell Let's Talk Day, a day where we don't care about how sore our thumbs get because it's so easy to help. For every tweet, post, use of a picture frame, snap, or text using #BellLetsTalk, Bell donates 5 cents towards mental health… Continue reading Bell Let’s Talk
We are in the thick of exams. The first Zach has ever experienced. I'm hoping we get out alive. Exam anxiety is very real. We had three 14 year old boys downstairs. They were studying for music and practicing their instruments: Zach a violin, Liam a viola and Oliver, a cello. Part of their exam… Continue reading Exam Anxiety
The following was written back in 2014, when we lost one of the funniest men on earth. We've learned a lot about mental illness since then, losing countless celebrities, family members, neighbours, heroes if you will, to suicide. Before now, I only ever dipped my toes into fully revealing what has happened in my life,… Continue reading I am ready.
My eyes open and I scramble to find my cell phone. The grey concrete block walls feel like they’re closing in - I can literally hear the crushing in my head. Why is my head hurting so much? There’s a drab cloudy window with no curtain - just a blind inside the window that I… Continue reading This broken brain is beautiful.